Go from me. Yet I feel that I shall stand Henceforward in thy shadow. Nevermore Alone upon the threshold of my door Of individual life, I shall command The uses of my soul, nor lift my hand Serenely in the sunshine as before, Without the sense of that which I forbore— Thy touch upon the palm. The widest land Doom takes to part us, leaves thy heart in mine With pulses that beat double. What I do And what I dream include thee, as the wine Must taste of its own grapes. And when I sue God for myself, He hears that name of thine, And sees within my eyes the tears of two.
~ Elizabeth Barrett Browning ~
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پنجشنبه 22 اردیبهشتماه سال 1384 ساعت 10:50 ق.ظ
What the bad news was became apparent too late for us to do anything good about it.
I was offered no urgent dreaming, didn't need a name or anything. Everything was taken care of.
In the medium-size city of my awareness voles are building colossi. The blue room is over there.
He put out no feelers. The day was all as one to him. Some days he never leaves his room and those are the best days, by far.
There were morose gardens farther down the slope, anthills that looked like they belonged there. The sausages were undercooked, the wine too cold, the bread molten. Who said to bring sweaters? The climate's not that dependable.
The Atlantic crawled slowly to the left pinning a message on the unbound golden hair of sleeping maidens, a ruse for next time,
where fire and water are rampant in the streets, the gate closed—no visitors today or any evident heartbeat.
I go rid of the book of fairy tales, pawned my old car, bought a ticket to the funhouse, found myself back here at six o'clock, pondering "possible side effects."
There was no harm in loving then, no certain good either. But love was loving servants or bosses. No straight road issuing from it. Leaves around the door are penciled losses. Twenty years to fix it. Asters bloom one way or another.